We spent that giddy summer learning each other’s boundaries, navigating hesitations, realities and runaway dreams.Although I felt certain I wanted to be with him, I balked every time we talked about telling our friends.
You might simply be a straight woman into this person who happens to be an FTM man and it could just be that you have been able to broaden the definition of the type of men you find attractive and that you are open to different types of people.
Sometimes we get hung up on people's bodies and if a person's body doesn't conform to what we assume male or female bodies to look like, we might make assumptions about their gender identity.
I have recently become friends with a FTM transgender man, and I find myself very sexually (although not romantically) attracted to him.
The fact that I am attracted to him makes me very uncomfortable.
When I contemplate dating as a trans man, a question that often comes to my mind is, “When is the right time to disclose? Since I am a fairly out transgender advocate, this has not been as difficult for me as it could be.
That being said, I still have a ton of fear around dating and disclosure.
Over the next few months, we found excuses to hang out in groups of mutual friends, harmlessly flirting without conscious intent.
Yet our eyes began to catch as a momentary indulgence, shelved between misdirected rationalizations. And then someone called him “he” for the first time and it felt correct in a way that “she” never had.
And then he bought his first chest binder and learned that the term for the gut-wrenching anxiety he felt when looking in the mirror was called gender dysphoria.
By March of my senior year, while he was picking out Goodwill sport coats and I a graduation dress, I had a full-blown crush and the sudden realization that I was about to miss my chance.
"I am a 20 year-old female, and I consider myself to be straight, and although have a few fantasies about women.